So I've 2 older children 16 and nearly 13 who I had very young and a just turned 2yo. Before having her our lives were pretty chilled we had the usual stresses of life but day to day things were straight forward. I'm now doing a nursing degree, work bank shifts and my partner works 6 days a week sometimes not getting home until very late. I feel like I'm really struggling to cope my 2 year old makes life so much more difficult. I love her so much and miss her when I'm not with her but then when she is with me I'm just stressed. I can't turn my back for 2 minutes or she's doing stuff she shouldn't and potentially putting herself in danger. Its not her fault but weekends are my only time to get on top of washing/housework etc so I'm not getting to take her out as much as I'd like. My older daughter will take her to play areas and stuff for me and she does go to her paternal grandparents the odd weekend. But just day to day before and after nursery, trying to make tea, is so much more difficult. She's always been harder than my other 2 were since she was born, me and my partner sometimes don't enjoy when we do take her out because she just whinges etc. I get no help from my side of the family. So most things lie on me. I've just cried dropping her at nursery because I feel guilty for feeling like this but I just think when is it going to get easier 😞