We have 4 children between us. 3 eldest are all at school, I work PT and have youngest half the weekdays, the rest of the time she's with a childminder. No3 has just started in reception. He has ASD and exploring possible FASD (he was adopted, always feel the need to clarify it wasn't me drinking). Frankly he is exhausting. Beyond exhausting. His constant stimming, noise, sensitivities etc just require so much effort. Partner works full time in a stressful job, he's often late and also returns overstimulated.
I am just so so tired of worrying, researching, dealing with it, sharing info, the mental load is extreme with him. During the time I have just the youngest I find myself feeling so chilled, so relaxed and more fun. She is neurotypical and although exceptionally head strong, that is nothing.
I feel so guilty to feel relieved. I dread pick ups after work/school. SEN parenting is hard.