So, i met my ex in middle school in the beginning of the school year, i was 15 at the time and she was 16, when we started dating she turned 17 and 2 months later i turned 16 (I'm 17 about 4 days). The relationship was good, she has a hard past and it created the person she was then, she has borderline and abondoment fear. The borderline didnt care me at all, yes sometimes she became mad and tells me some painful things but i learned to deal with that because i loved her and saw her in my future and she was aware of what she was doing after. Our relationship was lovely and we couldn't think about breaking up. But hey, after a year she broke up with me, she became cold and it felt like she didn't care at all. She threw away what we build and i'm still confused about that. I broke the contact because i was hurting. I haven't spoke to her for like a month now and she works at a local supermarket because it was 2 minutes from my house on foot.(she still didn't change from job btw and my parents think she want to see me in the store) everytime i go to the store and see her she is talking to another guy, and everytime those are other guys, not just 1. And she seems happy while i am still processing the breakup. I am good tho i am making it past it but its still hurting, she threw away everything we build and it already seems like she moved on. She also changed alot, when we were in a relationship everyday she couldnt do anything anymore past 10pm and wanted to sleep, now she is partying every weekend with friends till 4am, she was a girl with self respect and not easy with boys, but now she posts herself with only her bra on tiktok videos and talking to several guys at the time. Her whole appearance also changed. If she would come back to me i would still doubt to take her back, but secretly i want her to so i know she realized what she lost, but it feels also like i am being used of the happiness she got from me. Somebody experienced this as well and know wtf is going on in her head? switching from saying ''i will never leave you'' ''i cant live without you'' and being very intimate with me, to pretending like what we had never exists? And she just moves on with her life?
(sorry for the bad grammar i am not an english man)
thanks for the effort that you put in reading this, if you have any idea i would like to hear your thought :)