I love my kids to death and I'm really protective over them. Would die for them.
But I just don't enjoy being a mum at the moment. It's too hard.
They are 3 and 18 months and it's relentless. One or both of them are always crying/whinging/demanding something. I am constantly stressed and worn out. Still waking up in the night & in and out of their beds etc.
I have always suspected the eldest has ADHD, she just can't sit still, struggles with emotions, is very aggressive, struggles in school & has never slept well.
My youngest clings to me 24/7. Whinges all day and wakes up very early.
I want to find a full time job so that I can have a break but also feel so guilty doing that. I would feel awful putting the youngest in full time childcare (I have no help from family).
I have a DH who is very good when he's home but he works a lot and I honestly dread being on my own with them. It scares me. I can openly admit I am not coping. I have told family but they can't help as they work too and have their own lives.
Anyway the point of this post was just for some hope that it will get easier? As they age? I hate wishing the time away and I love how little they are, but mentally I am drained. Is it genuinely this hard for everyone or maybe there is something wrong with me?