Shaken baby syndrome? Really anxious

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So my almost 5 month old was crying all day yesterday and to calm him down I Toss him in the air twice obviously, it was like 1 cm up, but I have anxiety and now I’m wondering what if I tossed him too harsh. I seen my brother do it and it didn’t look scary but now that I’m thinking about it im just not sure Currently his pulling out all his toys from the toy box and last night he was laughing like never before and making his usual agaaaa Sounds. He is eating and sleeping ok. But I’m still worried I could have hurt him. I will never ever toss him up in the air again. He has been alittle fussy but he has been fussy all week due to teething. He is still laughing and smiling just now and has ate several times with no problem and just wants so play. Would I know if I had caused harm?? Would you be concerned?

Is this my anxiety or did I do something that could have hurt him.

OP, you don't throw a young baby in the air, they can barely support their head. Do you not have a health visitor? Are you in the UK?
Please get some real life support.

I didn’t really throw him, I guess I just moved him in an upward manner. Of course I would never throw him up it’s just m y anxiety is so bad idk what to do

Tossing in the air is totally different to what you've described as merely 'jigging' or 'bouncing'. If it was truly one of those then you have nothing to fear.
OP, you do sound over anxious. Please get some outside help. You shouldn't need to be asking these sort of questions.

This isn’t the first time I worried about this. Yea I didn’t really let go of him just moved him up and down twice to try to get him to calm down. He is feeding well and was playing thievhis morning im trying to calm myself down. Thanks

I've been worried about you OP. Please keep posting. You are doing fine. It's OK to be anxious but don't turn that into being isolated.

Maybe the anxiety is because I had a traumatic past miscarriage. I love my son more than my life, and I just want him to be ok. I tent to over exaggerate things sometimes. At two months I thought he has caught ticks because we took him to the park and there was warning about ticks. We didn’t even take him out of his car seat but I became obsessed and thought either me or my husband could have gotten ticks and what if we transfer them to our baby. So for the next two days I checked him for ticks and took his temperature to make sure he was ok and didn’t have Lyme disease or something. When he was three months old I thought he was having seizures because he was doing the Moro reflex a lot told my husband and my mom and they got mad at me and told me to stop trying to make a problem out of nothing. He is now 5 months old and of course totally fine.
doctor prescribed anti anxiety meds. I should be taking them but I’m nervous that it’s going to affect my son because I’m breastfeeding. I’ll start taking them after I stop breastfeeding. Don’t all mothers get anxious? What’s normal and what’s not??

Thanks for reading my rant. I have been reading the symptoms of SBS and thought about getting him checked out but he has no symptoms. Like I said he slept like a champ last night, eat well and did his first long and big laugh yesterday. I was making faces and he thought it was hilarious.