Hi All
I feel awful posting this but I'm so paranoid.
I was bullied growing up, unfortunately by family and not friends/anyone in school. So paranoid about my looks now. I KNOW im ugly (don't have desirable features) and I've accepted it. Married, happy and now cut contact with these family members.
I had a baby and as disgusting as this sounds, my main worry in pregnancy was if my baby would be ugly. I know this is trauma from my past. My little one is finally here and I adore him!! He's gorgeous in every way and everything I could have imagined.
Then I go to a party and someone actually tells me my baby has a big head and essentially is ugly. Me and my partner joked he had a big head to be honest, but someone else saying it and actually saying he is ugly brought back so many emotions.
I'm beyond paranoid now. I scrutinise every photo I take, only sending the best ones. I'm just worried what people think - I don't want people to think my darling boy is ugly and be talking behind our backs. I know again this is my trauma.. lots of people say he looks like me as a baby too, which just makes it all worse.
Any tips? Also do babies grow into their heads? Haha I said baby he is 2 in a few weeks with no hair which doesn't help. His head is really big to the point we were referred for a check up but nothing was wrong