Hello. My baby boy is about to turn 1 and I'm feeling sad about it as I really hoped by now things would feel better. He was an incredibly unsettled newborn and suffered from terrible reflux and digestive issues etc. These have definitely improved but I still find every day with him a total slog with very little pleasure or connection. He seems constantly stressed out and on high alert. He spends a lot of time whining and clinging onto my leg to be picked up (then trying to grab at anything and everything when he is up). He just seems constantly dissatisfied and I spend every waking minute trying to please him. He is seemingly only interested in activities that will cause him harm and when I try and engage him with something (like a nursery rhyme) he will shun me. He is very physically active (does not stop!) and able, was walking at 9.5 months, but I wonder if this has meant the more cerebral side is a bit behind and that's why I'm feeling a lack of engagement/communication from him? He is my second and I never had this issue with my daughter who I understood and felt totally connected with by the time she was this age. I guess I'm wondering if I'm just comparing him to my first or if there is something else going on with him. Has anyone else had a similar experience with a baby? Is it normal to feel this way almost a year in? I do give him lots of love and (all my!) attention but I'm really not enjoying spending time with him sadly ☹️