Hi everyone, just looking for some advice. My little Amelia is 8 months old and since about 3 months has not been keen on being held any affection really would rather explore she was an early roller and crawler shes normally a pretty happy little one however changing her is literally like an Olympic sport I have tried just about everything , whenever I'm giving her her milk or pick her up she pulls my hair so hard , hits me ect ( who knew babies were so strong?!) however that stuff I normally just deal with some babies arent affectionate it's sad for me not to be able to cuddle her but I deal now we are in leap 6 her usual sleep routine is gone itll take ages for her to sleep she was going to sleep fine in her cot drowsy but awake but now I have to rock her which I dont mind except I'm left with stands of hair being pulled out and being hit constantly until she does sleep , she doesnt want to do anything when shes awake if I play with her shes upset, if she plays alone shes upset , in her bouncer upset , in her jumperoo upset she wants to be picked up as soon as she is she wants to go on the floor and she screams very loudly not in a distressed way just screeching whenever she hits me i try to give no reaction as I dont want to encourage it but sometimes it's so bad I tell her no or if I wince she will laugh harder , my friend have had babies and I never remember them being like this with all the stress of lockdown too I'm really finding it hard to remain positive I really feel like she does not like me at all as with my sister she is not like this , I knew having a baby would be difficult I found out when I was on contraception and this has made me feel like I will never have another one despite how much I love her it isnt even 50% good times and 50% bad the only time she is still and seems happy is when shes asleep I feel so guilty that I dont know what to do has anyone else been through this ? I don't know whether it's normal or maybe there is something underlying that needs to be checked sorry this is so long I'm writing it as shes just managed to pull one of my eyelashes out while I fed her a bottle of milk , thank you in advance I'll add a picture of her .