Lockdown! 2 month old preferring his Dad!

[Cluelessnoob]

Hey everyone, I'm a new mum and new to mumsnet. So hi! I've been scrolling mumsnet posts from yonks ago and thought I really should ask Mum's who are going through this now. I'm not sure if this is a lockdown baby thing, so I'm anxious to hear if any other mums of lockdown babies are experiencing similar and also any mum who has felt like this!
My DS is 2 month old, born in lockdown. I'm fearing because of lockdown and my partner being around 24/7 working from home and meaning maternity leave is entirely changed to what it normally would be. I feel my chances of a strong, bond with my DS have been ruined by lockdown. I initially breastfed and expressed/ combi fed, but was unable to breastfeed after 2 weeks due to complications. We used to have plenty of skin to skin earlier on (again shared with partner) but DS started to get really squirmy and can now only manage a few mins before he wants off. I feel this is affecting bond also! After a very traumatic birth, I was absolutely exhausted and partner did the night feeds for the 1st week with expressed milk so I could get back on my feet (bless him!) Which I was so grateful for, but I feel that he then had all this extra bonding time with him and now DS seems to prefer his dad over me. I feel I've bonded with DS but no way near as deeply or strong as I would have thought and DS seems to want his daddy a lot of the time because he is always there! What am I doing wrong! I feel it should be me he wants the majority. Babies and mums is what it's all about surely? Dont get me wrong I am happy for them to have a strong bond, but I really feel unwanted, unneeded and useless at the moment because surely in normal circumstances it would just be me and my DS all day, having a lovely little baby bubble and this just hasnt happened. Am I too late for recreating that special bond, am I alone in this thought or is this being felt elsewhere among mums!?
Please no negative comments if you disagree with my point, I'm feeling at a right low with all this and i just want to hear if anyone else is experiencing this.

Yes I feel like this at times. Mother of a 7 month old here. Similar start issue but still expressing. I felt like this at the start of lockdown re the bond thing but someone pointed out I was glorifying the bond. Babies want to play on their mats, see the world, face out and so having those huggy times for me may not meet my babies agenda. I actually said something on a FaceTime call about dad being the preference and then it was pointed out to me she was sitting on dads big belly but staring at me and hanging onto my words really. I’ve realised she actually has a great bond with both of us and I’m sure your baby does too. Inbox is open if you need a chat.