Ok so I'm gonna be as honest as I can as I need help
I am an extremely paranoid anxious person by nature who overthinks everything. My first and only son is 18 months. I'm very rigid about times which I know is crazy but he has been eating by the clock fine. Until recently he's getting fussy so I put the tv on to distract him. When I turn it off it's hit and miss reactions, tears or no tears. Either way I always try to distract him with a toy or book etc. So anyway last night I came up with the idea that after breakfast I didn't mind tv if it's early or if it's later we take a walk and after lunch and tv we go out to groups soft play and keep it busy so by the times he's got back the tv has been off for ages
I am on anxiety tablets and did try cbt which wasn't for me but hubby wants me to try again which I will. The things that run through my head are
Too much tv will fry his brain
If he doesn't eat then he might only live off toast and yogurt which isn't awfully great
What if my parenting nesses him up in the long run?
I'm just always so anxious and on edge and everyone says to chill out and relax but it's easier said than done
Only thing is last night I started to have a vomiting bug as does hubby and baby a small bit so I've had the tv on all day which I feel awful about but it meant he was distracted while I rested on the sofa. What if I'm like this again over the next day or so and it's constant tv? I'm gonna feel so bad but we have no one to take him. I barely spoke to him today as I felt so awful