I have to gorgeous boys. (6&2) my eldest is autistic. I am due to get married next year.. And I having major internal dilemmas whether to have my kids at my wedding.
Do people ever not have their kids at their own wedding??
My eldest is the light of my life.. But everything about our big day is he's worst nightmare. Big hall. Sit down dinner. Lots of people.. noise.. darkness. To name a few.
But the thought of not having him their is heart breaking.
Part of me wants to be selfish for 1 day and just be able to relax and not worry how or what is going to happen.
I was thinking of possibly hiring some 1 professional to watch him all day.. And take him home before the evening.. But he does not like to leave me and will have a melt down.
I really want photos of us all together of our day.. if possible.. But am I just putting him threw he's worst nightmare because I want photos..
I feel like people will judge me for not having my own children at my wedding.
I know I shouldn't care what people think.
I also won't have 1 with out the other.. like I'm hiding my eldest son. Which I would never do.
Am I over thinking this? Are there other people who don't have there own kids at their wedding?? Or am I just a awful person.
Any advise welcome!