Well, here i am, not sure if this message will get read/shared or posted but here goes. I can't believe how many things have changed since i gave birth to my first child, the most noticeable change was the loneliness. Oh my god, it is so so lonely being a mother. The friends i thought i had have gone or they don't bother texting.
is it wrong to wake up and feel incredibly alone and sad. I gave up work to look after my babies who are 2 and half and 1 and half, i worked full time, 7 days a week, was always out and about, loved going to parties and socialising and than boom, it just seemed to have stop overnight.
i can go without speaking to no-one for a week sometimes. Whenever i try to engage in conversation, people always point me to the mother/toddler/coffee mornings, but to be honest, that has never been my thing. I did resort to it, and found it to be quite uncomfortable and quite clicky and to be honest, i do find myself to be quite a loner. Is there mothers out there like me, or is it just me?
I love my babies very much and i am very lucky to stay at home and watch there development, but sometimes, it would be nice if i can talk to someone, anyone. when my partner comes home, i take a 10 min walk. That is my time alone. i honestly feel trapped, i have no where to go, i can't exactly pick up the phone and pop over to a friends house, because i have no-one. Most of the time, when i am alone, i cry. Am i alone here, or am i just feeling sorry for myself?
I am not one to go on social media, i.e. facebook but the last few weeks i have, and again, i see people out with there friends, going out, doing something, and it just makes me feel worse.
Please, if there is anyone out there in the same boat, you are not alone.