Disappointed at being a mum

[Pam0077]

My DS is 2.5 years and has been quite a difficulty, high maintenance baby and very independent. He has being going through the 'terrible twos' since about 14m and has hit them big time now at two and a half. He has never wanted just me to soothe him, has gone through many phases of pushing me away and now he says 'want daddy want daddy' all the time it breaks my heart. The hours I have spent nursing and rocking him, but I just feel he doesn't want mummy and even has the defiant behaviour at the minute. Everyone says it's a phase but it is lasting a very long time, I hate to admit it but my experience of motherhood has been disappointing, I crave the feeling of him wanting only me and two years later I'm still waiting. I hate to wish time away, people say when he is three that's when I will feel like he is my little friend and more affection, but right now I feel like shit. x

2 year olds are not the most rewarding op, give yourself a break he's just a big baby!
My dd was really hard work as a little one, hated cuddles etc. She's nearly 5 now and a delight- seriously she is the light of my life and so much fun. She's bright and loving and she was worth the stress. I've even got another one- he's 2 and is a pain in the butt and largely unrewarding but this time I know there is light at the end of the tunnel and he will soon be a joy too!
Don't fret, toddlers are hard work and they get better

Thanks that is reassuring, hopefully we will get there soon! Its been rather a long phase of being pushed and told to go away, I was longing for the little friend stage but perhaps I'm expecting too much too soon. x

I think more like 3-4 for that. Dd and I are having a 'movie night' tonight - we are watching Cinderella, sharing a pizza and staying up till the shockingly late hour of 9pm. Two years ago I'd have happily sold her on eBay . Have some 🍷 he will get better!