I don't know where else to turn.
I'm so ashamed of how my son is behaving. I just don't feel I can talk to people in real life.
My son is 9, only just. We are on holiday and he is being so very very awful. He's having the most monumental tantrums. Screaming, kicking things, rushing towards us with clenched fists, slamming his fists down on tables.
Im sitting on the balcony sobbing as we've come back to the room early as yet another night has been ruined by his tantrums.
He has burst into tears, stormed and blamed us when he has lost a game of pool, even if we were there. It's like a red mist descends and he just screams and is aggressive (but not violent - if that makes sense)
This has happened multiple times on holiday and before too. It's just getting worse. I feel sick with anxiety about his behaviour. I hesitate (and hate) social events because of him and I am just so so at my wits' end and so utterly miserable.
I feel such a failure. I do t know why he is being like this or why he acting so badly. I also feel a failure as I don't know how to help him.
I just had to get it out somewhere.
Thank you for listening.