I really need some advice as I'm starting to feel very depressed. I'm so run down and tired and I'm really feeling my age (42)! We adopted a 10 month old baby girl back in March (she is now 18 months) and for the majority of that time she has been difficult to say the least. I only have my friends children for comparison and I try not to compare as I know all children are different and that some are more sensitive than others but she definitely seems much harder than most. She can have a screaming fit over absolutely anything. She went into orbit this morning because I dared to take her off my knee and place her on the sofa while I went to the toilet. I couldn't cope as the screaming is ear shattering. I actually think I have hearing damage because of it. Anyway I didn't handle the situation very well so I put her in her cot while she was screaming, closed the door and went for a shower. I feel terrible as it only made her worse but the rage and angry screaming is like nails going down a chalkboard and my nerves are in shreds! Sometimes she'll do it on car journeys and I have to stop the car, take her out and cuddle her until she stops. This usually works but some days I have to strap her to me in her sling as she has a meltdown if I put her down on the floor. She is poorly at the moment, off her food and possibly teething, however this behaviour can happen at any time, teething or not. Is it normal? I'm very affectionate with her and her me when she isn't having tantrums. I do love her very much but she is testing that love and I sometimes don't like her which is worrying for me. Do I just need to suck it up and hope it'll pass? I worry she is going to be a difficult child and I sometimes grieve for my past, easy life. Some supportive advice would be much appreciated.