My DS is pretty good generally. He's quite bright and asks loads of questions and forgets absolutely nothing.
I took him shopping today and for the most part he was good... apart from a tantrum on way in when he wanted to get in trolley but I had to change DD's nappy before we could start.
However, on the way out I let him go in an ice cream van 50p machine that was outside the shop. When it had finished he also had a sit in a play tractor but I didn't have any more money and it was luncthtime so I told him it was time to go. He came away from the machines as I started to walk away slowly.
Our car was parked a short distance away and he started pulling at the trolley, screaming and hollering that he wanted to get in. I couldn't control the trolley as he was pulling it and it was so full and my dd was in the baby seat.. it was a nightmare.
I explained that the car was just down here and tried to keep calm. He had got himself in such a state and wouldn't listen (don't think he could hear as zoned in on trying to get in trolley!). I ended up yanking his hands off, more than once and shouting at him to get in the car and sit in the seat. I unpacked shopping calmly and when I got in the car I was so severe with him with my words... told him that I had just given him a treat and he had been silly in wanting to get in trolley, blah blah. I also told him he made me very angry and that he was a pain in the arse (not proud of that). I just tend to over-react with my words and the way I look at him sometimes. If someone looked at me like that I'd hate them. He says sorry mummy but will do it again and again so I've told him not to bother saying sorry (I'm such a witch).
He is at the stage that he does know what's right and wrong and purposely does things at times.. he does tend to try to 'wind me up' when he is doing something he shouldn't by showing me what he's done or waving it in my face. He thinks everything is funny or a game. It makes me so mad that I do so much for him and then he misbehaves. I know that sounds pathetic and I do know I am the adult and he's the child but I can't help how I'm feeling. I basically feel like a rubbish mum and hate myself for not being able to handle things better. He goes back to nursery soon and he will make a major fuss and I start off sympathetic and then have no sympathy. I so wish I could keep calm and not loose my temper. I'm sure it would help me and my DS. Does anyone have any tips on keeping calm and not letting things get to them?