Feel so bad this moring, feel guilty but then feel part of me was right and then part of me could have handled things better. Got up this morning at 7 to get my four kids ready for school, the youngest is almost 6 and in yr 1 at school, we have quite a few issues and are waiting for an appointment with camhs. She has a lot of issues with clothes bothering her, things have to feel right, her cap has to be striahgt, her bobble has to touch her head in the right place, her socks cant have bumps in, her wistband has to be right, shoes have to be right, if she spills a drop of water on her top it bugs her. She also has poor concentration, poor memory, she struggles with work in school shes only on stage 1 books and at level W in her national curriculum so behind, , she doesnt have any help or an iep or anything in school even though the teachers have acknowledge shes behind and that they have probems with concentration.
This morning we were getting ready for school, it took her 40 minutes to eat her breakfast ebcause she couldnt keep attention on what she was supposed to be doing, I then sent her upstairs to get dressed, 10 minutes later she came down saying she couldnt find her toy money I asked her why she hadnt got dressed but she just obviously was too busy finding her money, I then did her hair and it wasnt right, the bobble wasnt touching her head but surprisingly she accepted it this morning and carried on getting ready.
We finally were ready and it was time to get coats on, now two days ago I bought the youngest some gloves but she put them on and said they werent right so she swapped with my older daughter whos 10. This morning the little one had lost her gloves (she loses everything, she has ost 4 pairs now) anyway she went to snatch the gloves from my older daughter saying she was wearing them because her hands were cold, I took them off her and refused to let her have them because she didnt want them two days ago but now shes lost her she does. She screamed all the way to school because her hands were cold and I did feel sorry for her but the principal was she had lost the gloves and these ones now belonged to my eldest daughter also has a hat with scarf and gloves attached so she did have this but I wont accept snatching and screaming or speaking bad to her sister when its her own fault she has lost the other 4 pairs. In the end my daughter gave her the gloves to shut her up but I still feel that she shouldnt have had them because she needs to learn to care for her own stuff and with how she had gone about getting the gloves of my elsdest daughter. I dont actually know why im posting but just feel a need to get it off my chest. I know she has problems but this doesnt mean she should be able to speak to people in a nasty way or snatch things just because she hasnt took care for her own items. I know that if i had just let her have them we wouldnt have had all that this morning but i dont agree with her getting her own way for bad behaviour even though thats whats ended up happening!