Oh god, I so want to get rid of DS1s dummy. I am trying to restrict it to naps and failing miserably. Some days he doesn't want it at all. Others he wants it ALL DAY.
I have been limiting it and when he starts to ask "Niniiii, niniiii" I say "no, not until nightnight babies." And then O.M.G. he will lie on the floor and have the worst tantrums ever. Today it lasted from 9.30am until 11.15am when he fell asleep with a dummy, frantic and hungry because he wanted it back so much.
I want it gone bec I think it's unhygenic, looks terrible (he looks older than 18 months), he can only say two words and I am worried about his teeth and his speech.
I am literally dreading this afternoon. When he wakes up and I take it away, all the screaming will start again.
This morning I had the worst morning ever (I might put this somewhere more prominent as I am so upset). I took him to Movers and Shakers, thinking the distraction might work and it did for a bit until the class was delayed by an hour. He was then off and on tantrumming and playing, by the time it came to circle time he was crimson with rage. I was ignoring it and refusing to give in, trying various distractions, nothing worked. I am due to give birth #2 on Monday and was trying to hold him, but he was beating his head against my stomach, which was in agony. In the end, one of the other mothers offered to take him out (who was such a good mum her kid stayed and looked after itself), I was so embarrassed and felt like such a crap mum. We were asked to leave until he calmed down as we were disturbingthe other babies. I left the class with DS still screaming and everyone looking at me like "how the fuck is she gonna cope with another one when she can't deal with the one she's got", didn't get my sodding money back either. Now I can't go back there because I am too ashamed. I cried all the way home. I feel I want to go back because he needs to bloody well learn to play nice. His father is antisocial get everything my own way type, because his mother gave him carte blanche to do what ever pleased as a young child and I don't want him to be the same.
I am now at home and want to be left alone but the woman who is cleaning before #2 arrives (expensive, but I so can't reach the bottom of the fridge/oven/skirting etc) is here and I can hardly ask her to go. DH started a pointless and totally unnecessary row, just because, and I want to lock myself in the bathroom and cry. What the hell am I going to do with two of them? Dh is not supportive over dummy removal. He is lazy by nature and is happy for DS to keep it until 2fvcking1 if necessary just so "he doesn't have to put up with him crying when he [DH] is tired and wants to rest!!!" If the boy then has speech problems or bad teeth however, that will of course, be my fault. I didn't want to give him the bloody thing in the first place, I was LITERALLY forced into when DS was 3 days old by my mother, who was all "oh just use it for sleep" totally oblivious to the fact that DH would be giving it to him round the clock (he cared for him most of the time I was at work). I was bullied into it by DH and my mum who wanted some sleep (oh really? is it your post natal body that needs to recover?) and also neither of them have to pick up the pieces when it comes to removing the bloody thing, oh no, that falls to me who didn't want it in the fvcking first place.
thanks for letting me get that off my chest! Sorry for whinging on!
G xx