I'm feeling really low today. I invited a friend round this morning who lives locally - it s only the second time she's been round with her ds who is a few months older than my 20 month ds. I'm keen to make a proper friendship with her as she is really lovely, we are quite similar and live so close. However, ds, who is gorgeous on a one to one, is going through a difficult phase when around other children - he has a tendency to hit and push, particularly if they have a toy he wants, or worse still, is actually his.
I spent the whole morning stressed and embarrassed as my ds repeatedly pushed and hit her ds and although I think I did all i could to prevent him from doing so, I'm worried she won't want to come round again because of that, and also because I'm not properly myself or able to relax when he's like this so she won't get to know the real me.
Although it can be stressful when my other friends with kids the same age are around, at least they know me but most of us have gone back to work now and we don't see that much of each other.
I'm also fed up of the snide comments from some other mums at playgroup, usually mums of girls who are playing quietly. I always address ds's behaviour (pay more attention to the dc who ds has hit, remove ds for a few minutes, calmly and firmly tell him no etc) but it seems like this is not enough and I'm being judged as a crap parent who has created a bully.
Sorry this is a bit of an offloading ramble, and I am rather hormonal as pg with dc2.