16 years without sex

[IndigoShark]

Endometriosis started it all.
I need to ask what my next steps are.
Because of Endometriosis, our sex life declined after marriage. We powered through to get pregnant. We have a wonderful lad.
I'm so lonely though because even though I've asked for intimacy, I've stopped asking for sex. Nothing. I know the reasons. But I'm lonely. So sole crushingly lonely. I'm lying next to her now after saying how I'm feeling, again. Nothing. I might as well have talked to the wall. I want to leave but I love her.

How do I live in a intimacy free sexless marriage without going back on the anti depressants (just come off them after 7 years on them)?

I think you probably need a woman who does have endometriosis to tell you what sex is like for someone with (presumably severe) endometriosis.
You also need to take the pressure off.
And have couple and maybe sex counselling. You need to get help in - we arnt good enough to tell you what to do and honestly I can tell you some of the replies on here may well be brutal.

Sex and companionship are two completely different things. You shouldn't be feeling lonely, no-one deserve loneliness.
This is so sad - I want to leave but i love her. How does she feel? Does she have that love and commitment too?

Just because penetrative sex is off the table doesn't mean all intimacy has to be. My husband and I stopped attempting to have penetrative sex 6 years ago due to my issues but we are still intimate in other ways, we kiss, cuddle and do other things. It's not as often as my husband would like due to my mental health and physical health plus our son with autism but we really try our hardest to make something happen at least once a month to keep us from becoming "two people who live together".