Thank you SO much to everyone who has replied. I truly appreciate you taking the time to give me the benefit of your experiences.
@Loushome, yes I joined the FB group, it's been very helpful to read through all the info there. I think it will be a great source of support. Thanks for the suggestion. I also read the two links you sent - hugely helpful! x
I'm feeling quite a bit calmer about it and have written a list of questions for my consultant when I see him next. I guess one way to look at the periodic blood tests is that you're monitored so much more closely than as if you're just in the general population, so anything nasty is caught very early. I'm putting a positive spin on this!
When reading through support sites etc I sometimes wonder if I'm severe enough to warrant anti-tnf - some poor folks appear to have it so much more severely than me. I can walk, function properly for the most part... but then I think about the excruciating pain I have trying to sleep, the lack of mobility in my entire spine, the hunch I'm starting to get, the pain that sears up my neck to the base of my skull, and now my intermittent jaw issue meaning some days it's hard to open my mouth wide enough to fit the bacon butty in!
"Severity" looks different on different people. As autoimmune sufferers I think we get very used to, as my Rheumy said, "putting up and shutting up" - chronic pain just becomes the dull underscore to our daily lives and if there's a med I should try to give me a more age-relevant life back and allow me to run around the garden with my little one without pain and stiffness (and non-threatening side effects), then I'm becoming convinced I should try it.
It's also about trying to halt the disease. In the couple of years since diagnosis it's now intermittently in my knee, jaw and most severely in my neck. How will that all look in another couple of years?
Thank you to everyone who took the time to reply. I'm here to discuss any aspects of treatment or AS if anyone wishes xx