I've worked in the same residential home for the last 20 years with the same 4 ladies with a nice staff team who I got on well with.
I have adhd plus autism suffer from anxiety but always struggled through.
I've been happy in my job as its a routine I've been in for the last 20 years and I'm very comfortable I don't know anything else.
My mental health as took a dive due to the home been closed I miss everything about the place staff patients and I'm completely floored by the closure I'm just not confident to go elsewhere but I'm trying to force myself but I feel like a complete idiot everywhere I go as I don't know the routine and I can't find a place rthe same again. I've joined another company and I feel awful and finding it difficult to mix in the patients are completely different to what I'm used to although they do seem to like me.
I've also have a very mean colleague there who excludes me and doesn't talk to me. I am sensitive I know that but I was so upset as this colleague welcomed another new starter all smiles and like best friends I don't know why all other staff are okay with me but I feel so awkward.
I'm really depressed about it all not just the mean colleague but everything I only do casual hours as I get overwhelmed at full time but I didn't mind doing more hours at my old place as I was comfortable there but now I don't know if I'll ever be able to settle or even find anywhere like my old place again.