I’m seeking support / guidance from others who may empathise with my situation/ be able to share own experiences.
My ex has fought for our marriage since we separated 12mo ago, and I’m feeling emotionally drained and confused. I realise everyone’s situation is different, however I have no family locally, and my friends’ knowledge and support through the separation, mean they are negatively biased despite their best intentions. My ex has no idea I’m feeling confused because I’ve kept things amicable but emotionally distant so no wires are crossed.
For context, my ex is a great dad. He has many good qualities and I truly believe he is a good person. We have both taken accountability for our behaviours and for the relationship breakdown (12mo ago). He is demonstrating a willingness to learn and grow - now recognising his difficult behaviours, and apologises after they happen. It’s not perfect but he’s clearly trying. Friends have warned me of a cycle they witness, but there seems to be real effort and change.
I’m scared I might be walking away from a decent thing and a person who deeply loves and accepts me. And from the family my son so desperately wants.
My biggest hesitation is the risk to my son’s wellbeing if things return to how they were. I never want to put my son through this again.
I’m at a cross roads, and feel paralysed.