Are 1/500 good odds??

[19andhighrisk]

I’m 19 and my combined screen at 12 weeks was 1/500
4.3 hcg MoM
.94 pappa
All ultrasounds were “normal”(no markers but that’s not very reassuring because most downsyndrome children don’t have markers)
The nipt costs 600$ and I don’t live with my parents and currently don’t have a job so I can’t afford it.Also my doctor doesn’t offer amino .Im literally going crazy as so many people have had experiences where they weren’t high risk and only found out at birth that the baby had downsyndrome.I think if I have a downsyndrome kid I’ll be pushed to my mental edge.I don’t want to hear about stories of how downsyndromes are just as good because at the end of the day they are intellectually challenged and have an average iq of 50.I will not be a caretaker for the rest of my days ,I have a severely autistic brother and I do not want a disabled kid .If that makes me a horrible person I guess I am.When I asked if downsyndrome is possible the doctor said indeed it can be possible but it’s unlikely but he’s also seen it happen..(his patients giving birth and finding out it’s ds).I’m 27 weeks and I know at this point I’ll have to find out at birth whether or not my baby has it…at 19 it’s unlikely but who knows … my hcg was abnormally high.Im so scared god will punish me with a disabled kid.It’s probably one of my biggest fears at the moment.I am just so stressed over this as the odds could have been lower and people with my risk and lower had chosen not to do invasive tests and ended up with a downsyndrome baby .

I’d say you have very good odds, like the doctor said that doesn’t mean impossible but very unlikely.

it’s too late to have an abortion anyway. To explain myself, I’m pro choice with a cut off in the 2nd trimester. Bc by 27 weeks your baby can survive outside the womb and recognises your voice (see studies) so is conscious (not like you and me, but like a baby would be).

but I also don’t think you should raise a child you don’t want. It doesn’t make you a horrible person and I understand you perfectly. You can always leave the baby to the state.

I wouldn’t worry too much, you’re so young and the odds are good, you’re as likely to be struck by lightning.

You have nothing to worry about. Of course the doctor can not guarantee a healthy baby & some DS children do go undetected until birth. However you have good odds. If there was something to worry about you would have been told and offered the NIPT. High risk is anything over 1:150 you are a long way from that marker