Don't really know the point of this post but I'm finding it hard to talk to family/friends about what is happening.
My partner and I have a healthy, happy amazing 5 year old girl. But I have had fertility issues before and after her birth. I'm currently on my 15th pregnancy which was conceived via IVF. All the others have been natural pregnancies which, except for my little girl, have ended in miscarriages or ectopic pregnancies.
I had my 12 week scan yesterday and the babies NT measurement was high at 3.7mm this had increased from 3.2mm a week earlier. I'm waiting for a scan with the specialist who will also have our blood results on Tuesday and then the CVS test done at a bigger hospital some day next week.
I feel broken, inside I just know the baby is unwell in some way and i'm prepping myself for the worst. I feel guilty for doing the tests and wanting to know, lots of friends and family have never had the edwards, downs screening etc as it wouldn't matter to them but to me I just need to know what we are facing.
After all of the issues we have had and to finally get another little baby to stick and survive and grow to then get this news it just feels so unfair and cruel.