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No idea

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mrsawhite · 01/06/2021 15:33

Had our first nhs scan today. Was worried as we had a MMC last year. All looked good. Measuring over 13 weeks. But a huge amount of fluid. Advised to have cvs test. But feel like this whole thing is now doomed. Anybody been through similar? Just feel so sad. We've been trying for so long

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TheVanguardSix · 08/06/2021 10:23

The forum is for parents who have had to make the difficult choice of ending a pregnancy based on a prenatal diagnosis. It is amazing because to me, it is a significant loss- despite the fact that the choice to not continue was in my hands. There are few people in the real world you can really talk about this pain with. And ARC was a safe haven for me... a loving space where I could mourn and learn and heal.
I wish you strength and love, OP.

jmm499 · 08/06/2021 10:48

I’m so so sorry @mrsawhite 💔 I feel devastated for you. Sending you love and strength - will be thinking of you xxxx

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mrsawhite · 08/06/2021 11:17

I emailed arc. Had a lovely reply. Thank you for messages. X

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milkshakeandchips5 · 08/06/2021 11:23

@mrsawhite sending you good thoughts. I'm so sorry you didn't have a better outcome. This experience really opened my eyes about how truly difficult pregnancy can be. I was naive previously. My heart aches for all who have to go through difficult decisions. Be kind to yourself. It's an impossible situation.

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mrsawhite · 08/06/2021 11:27

It is. But really only one option which is the best and kindest thing I suppose. Read up and it sounds truly awful the syndrome. Just hope to god the day itself involves a lot of pain relief. Am so frightened about it

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otterbaby · 08/06/2021 14:00

I'm so sorry. How far along are you now?

I had to deliver my little girl who also had a chromosomal abnormality at 16 weeks and they were happy to give me as much pain relief as I wanted x

Sunshine1982flowers211111 · 08/06/2021 16:53

I’m sending you so much love and warmth and well wishes for happiness in the future xxx I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this xx I have also had difficult news at scans so I know what it’s like xxx sending love x

Moonshine11 · 08/06/2021 16:57

So deeply sad for you op.

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mrsawhite · 08/06/2021 19:32

Hello. Sorry for delay. Been a strange day. Hospital calling me tomorrow to get a date sorted. But imagine will be next week. Would like it then anyway. Will be just over 15 weeks. Am hoping pain relief will take the edge off. Was bloody awful last year at 12 weeks x

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mamamalt · 08/06/2021 20:09

OP I'm so so sorry to hear your news. That is such a sad and terrible outcome for you.
I just wanted to say that I faced this recently and I found that a BPAS clinic near me offered the surgical termination option and would actually do a termination under general anesthetic at a certain gestation.
I'm not sure if this would help you or not but I'm not sure many women are made aware and there for have to go through the induction and birth process.
All my thoughts are with you

VeganCheesePlease · 08/06/2021 21:16

I'm so sorry Flowers
I lost my son to the same condition last year. Thinking of you and here if you need a chat xx

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mrsawhite · 08/06/2021 22:07

Don't think there are any bpas clinics near me. So think we will just have to go down the route of medication. Hopefully it will be ok with pain relief. X

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PurpleFlower1983 · 10/06/2021 00:24

I’m so sorry to read what you are going through SadFlowers

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mrsawhite · 14/06/2021 11:42

Off to hospital soon to take the initial tablet. Was feeling really calm about it all. Now I don't. ☹️

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Sunshine1982flowers211111 · 14/06/2021 12:03

Sending love and thoughts xxx I so hope the process goes as smoothly as possible and that you can heal and look forward to happier times ahead xxx bless your heart and your little Angel. I’m so sure there will be happier times ahead for you and your family xxxx

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mrsawhite · 14/06/2021 15:43

Tablet taken. Unsure if I am allowed a glass of wine tonight!

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jmm499 · 14/06/2021 15:51

Thinking of you @mrsawhite Flowers

sweetheartyparty · 14/06/2021 16:10

I'm so very sorry to hear your sad news. I had a medical TMFR at 15 weeks as our boy had a lethal skeletal dysplasia. We had also been trying for many years.
I had a lot of love and support from the nurses and doctors when going through the termination. They asked me if we wanted to see him, what we wanted to call him and arranged a funeral for him. I couldn't face seeing my baby which I have really regretted. I hope you have as good a care as I did during those difficult days.
I'm pretty sure I drank some wine after the first tablet. I remember asking the nurse if it was ok.
Take care and I'm so sorry for what you are going through. There were better times for us and there will be for you too xxx

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mrsawhite · 14/06/2021 17:04

So sorry to hear your story. We had the chat today about afterwards. Still very unsure. I feel so wound up about the pain aspect. I can't seem to look beyond it ☹️

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sweetheartyparty · 15/06/2021 18:47

How are you? I hope you're doing ok.
I was given paracetamol, codeine and pethidine in that order. It did get uncomfortable before I was given pethidine. I dont remember any pain on pethidine. Ask for it as soon as it starts feeling painful on codeine as it takes some time to arrange an anaesthetist.
I'm sending lots of love and hugs to you. Feel free to PM if you need to.

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mrsawhite · 15/06/2021 21:40

Thank you for your post. Only thing I've read is pethidine can make you quite sick? Have quite sore cramps already. But nothing else happening. Just keep telling myself will be back home this time tomorrow x

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sweetheartyparty · 15/06/2021 22:58

I remember the cramps too. This time was the worst part for me. The wait was awful when all I wanted to do is run away. Emotionally It was easier when the procedure started and I felt intense relief afterwards.
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. You will get through it xxx

Sunshine1982flowers211111 · 15/06/2021 23:49

Also thinking of you xxx as the other lady said you will get through it and then you can begin to heal and look forward xx sending hugs and warmth xx

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mrsawhite · 16/06/2021 17:57

Thank you for the replies. Home now. Very hard day. But was quicker than expected. Pain was awful even with lots of relief.

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jmm499 · 16/06/2021 18:16

@mrsawhite I’m so sorry for your loss and for what you’ve had to go through 💔 Well done for getting through it, you have amazing strength xxx