Hi everyone
Just looking for a place to vent and more so if anyone has any advice or has been through the same thing.
So this is my First baby with my partner but my 3rd baby, I am 31 years old.
Background: spotting at 6 weeks referred to EPU and all was fine. Baby was there and a little heartbeat but there was an area of bleed which wasn't near baby and I had with a previous pregnancy and it usually clears up on its own.
Private scan at 8 weeks and 3 days - all appearing fine - heartbeat seen, baby growing perfect to dates and the bleed was not seen on this scan.
Due to my partner not being able to come to my 12 week Nhs scan we had a 12 week scan at 12 weeks private - all appearing normal, low NT , baby looking fine and again perfect for dates.
My nhs "12 week scan" was at 13 weeks and 1 day , again absolutely nothing noted, my nt was 2.3 and results came back in the low risk.
At this point had no reason to be concerned.
We went for a private scan at 16 weeks and 3 days, again all appearing perfect and normal. And we found out we were having a little girl.
Fast forward to yesterday I had my anomaly scan (19 +6) and I feel like my whole world has fallen apart.
I was alone due to my partner not being allowed due to covid so I think i was on a downer anyway and dreading any sort of news.
So everything was completely fine and normal and all done in great detail as expected at 20 weeks scans. All bar 2 things.
1 - there was a brightness to the baby's bowel which I know can mean a number of things
2- baby's head had a "lemon sign" although this is slight as Iv looked at "lemon sign" skulls and they seem extremely mis shapen.
The sonographer was lovely and just said he has to do it just incase, they have seen a lot worse and it is probably nothing but it's his job to note anything that looks slightly out the norm. Of course I appreciate everything he says.
So straight away I was in pieces and we have now been referred to fetal medicine and have the scan on Tuesday as they work fairly quickly.
I am absolutely petrified!!! My head is all over the place and so many things are going through my head. I just want our little girl to be ok. Trying to stay "normal" and hold myself together for my other 2 children at home but inside I am absolutely in pieces and the days are feeling super slow waiting for Tuesday to come.
Does anyone have any advice or positive stories about any of the above I'd really appreciate hearing anything or even the not so positive, I'm trying to be realistic about the situation.
Thankyou xx