Hi,
New to this but hope there's someone out there who can relate to me...
I am already mummy to a gorgeous little girl who is almost 2, I found out I was pregnant again around a month and half ago, after much debate and consideration me and my partner(also father to my little girl) decided we were not ready to go through with another pregnancy yet although in the future we would like more children, i am 25, he is a little older. we would like to plan our next child when the time is right. however, right now all of our energy needs to be focused on our little girl, she still doesn't sleep through and is at that age where she never stops! The thought of another baby and me having to go through pregnancy again right now is just not what I wanted.
Anyway 5 weeks ago today I had a surgical abortion, I was just under 10 weeks pregnant. I know it was the right thing to do and at the time my partner and I made the decision together and he supported me. However, since I've had the abortion me and my partner have done nothing but argue. I feel incredibly alone and I'm overwhelmed with guilt. He has said some of the most hurtful things to me and I feel like we have become enemies. All I want is him to hug me but its like we're subconsciously blaming one another for the hurt were feeling. I don't want this abortion to be the break up of my family but I'm struggling to see how we can work through this. I cry so much and I am now at the point where I only cry when I am alone because I feel he doesn't understand the hurt I'm feeling and he doesn't know how best to support me. I'm so sad over the whole thing. I just want him to be my rock but we seem to be losing each other.
Has anyone else experienced this?? Either partners who haven't supported you properly. Or anyone who has felt guilt and extreme sadness after an abortion... Please let me know I'm not alone :-( xx