This has been the most surreal, horrible day (just to clarify - I'm in a different time zone which is about 11 hours ahead of the UK).
I am 12+5 days today with a much wanted DC3. This morning, I went for my 12 week scan and NT test, which I have been very anxious about - probably because I'm now 38 and was 30 and 31 when I had the other two. But I can't honestly say I've had any kind of feeling that everything will be okay this time round, like I remember having before.
To start with everything looked great - the baby was bouncing around on the screen, measuring right for dates, and everything was where it should be. The sonographer took the nuchal measurement and it was about 1.7mm, which is great. She took another measurement of 1.9mm I think - again, nothing to worry about.
It was took a while to find the nasal bone because the baby's hands were in front of its face, but eventually it moved, and she said there was a nasal bone there, but that it wasn't very developed. She really didn't seem concerned. I went off to the loo, and DH asked her about it again, and she said as long as it's there that's the main thing.
We went into a consultation with the doctor then, and that's when things started to get surreal. He had my bloods back and said they were all more or less normal. (One of them, I think it was the free beta HCG, was marginally low, but he said it was close enough.) But then he said that he had to mark the nasal bone as absent because it was too underdeveloped, and that as a result my combined risk of Downs - when my age was taken into account - was coming back as 1 in 25, while the risk of Trisomy 18 (Edwards) was 1 in 370.
If he had marked the nasal bone as present, my combined risk would have been 1 in 2,000ish (after I saw the 1 in 25 everything else went blank, but I think that's what he said.)
He presented us with the options - cvs, amnio or Harmony. I couldn't have the amnio until 16 weeks, the Harmony results would take 2 weeks and would still only be diagnostic, meaning that he would probably have recommended further testing if it had been positive, but he could do the cvs then and there, and we'd have the result in 2 days. We didn't even think about it for long - he said the risk of a miscarriage was 1 in 400 on average, but that he'd never had anyone miscarry. I just felt the need to know. I had and still have no idea what we'll do if we get a positive result for Downs but my anxiety levels were going through the roof and I wanted it over with.
The cvs was okay - it wasn't pleasant, but it was quick. Now we've just got to wait for the results, which should be in two days. I don't know what I'm looking for - maybe just some handholding or to hear if anyone else has been through this. It has helped to write it all down. I feel really numb - it all happened so fast, I keep thinking this was a dream and I'll wake up in a minute.