im so annoyed with myself!

[ihopeimunder14wks]

I have done 6 pregnancy tests and sure enough they are all positive.
I have had sickness and all of a sudden a bump seems to be appearing.
I can?t go through with this pregnancy it will put my family into such hardship (I?m the main breadwinner as dp was made redundant) we could lose our home .

I feel bad because we longed for our daughter for such a long time she will be 2 in sept. I went to the doctors yesterday and she was absolutely lovely to me about it all and very supportive. They will contact me within a week.

Why can I not talk to anyone? I feel like I?m deceiving family and friends only me and my dp know but he just isn?t a talker and I need to speak about it all.
Not to help me confirm my decision as we have made it.

More that I feel like a cold hearted cow for being able to talk about it all in such a manner that I feel unattached to being pregnant.

This is the result of a split condom, I will be going on the injection after this is all over.

I have even gone off coffee and I?m worried that I have been preg for longer than I expect??

Oh dear what a mess!

Caitlin Moran has written about this in her book How to be a Woman - about having an unexpected, unwanted pregnancy and deciding to terminate, and feeling judged for not being overly emotional and filled with remorse. See if you can get a copy and if it chimes with your point of view.

I don't know whether you should tell your family, it depends how strongly they'll feel about your decision, whether they'll support you regardless, whether they have strong views on abortion etc.

I'd try to tell at least one friend esp if your DH is not a talker; even if you are 100% decided, talking it through is bound to help you deal with it all.

If it wasn't for financial reasons would you consider having the baby?