if anyone is around I could really use a bit of hand holding

[Antidote]

I am 15 weeks with dc2, and waiting for the results of a CVS.

The test was done for a nuchal of 3.8 with a risk of 1:5 for down's, and 1:15 for Edward's/Patau.

On Monday a cardiac scan showed soft markers for Patau.

I was hoping to get the results during the day but hadn't had a call by 5pm.

What is so awful is that I am at work till 9am, and I just can't stop thinking the worst. I just can't cope with the idea that tomorrow I am going to get a phone call and my world is going to stop.

I have no idea how I am going to cope.

I don't know what to say. Just hang in there.

Is there anyone with you?

DH is at home with DS and hopefully getting some sleep.

I have to actually be on site in case of emergencies overnight. There are other people on the building, but no one I know or work with closely.

Oh darling. Like London, no idea what to say. Just keep breathing, keep going. You don't know til you know, IYKWIM.

So sorry you're going through this.

I just wish I could close my eyes and wake up this time next week when it might be over, one way or another.

I am such an idiot for thinking I could just cope for tonight.

Thank you both. I know it might actually be good news, but I am just imagining the worst.

It's only natural to be worried. Don't beat yourself up about it.

In fact, be extra nice to yourself. You deserve it.

Anyone would be worried! Can you possibly go home? It's a lot to deal with, and then to be at work...

I know. I want to curl up in the corner & cry, but it's not really an option for the next few hours.

To add insult to injury my PILs are coming tomorrow afternoon, and are not known for their tact & discretion. Urgh.

There's no way their visit can be postponed, is there? I can see how that could make things even tougher for you.

I really can't go home. It is unlikely I will actually have to do anything else tonight, but someone needs to he available.

I had told a friend at work incase I got the results during the day, so she could step in to cover the overnight but it is too late now.

LondonKitty I am counting the hours till the canteen opens & I can have a hot chocolate.

I don't know about canceling the PILs.

They are lovely really, just a bit old-fashioned about this sort of thing.

On a practical note, if I need to go for an appointment with the consultant to discuss options I will want DH with me and they can entertain DS.

Well, I'm American and it's only 8:30 here, so I can talk to you as long as you like. :)

My pager has gone off.

With any luck it will be something mindless that will keep me busy for an hour or so.

Thanks for the support cheerful. I might be back in a bit.

It's disgustingly muggy here, so I'll just be lying in front of the fan mumsnetting. I'm here if you need me.

Will be thinking of you Antidote. And sending you my best wishes.

I'm awake here too (it's 9:45am) so here to hold hands.

My thoughts are with you.

oh ffs

So sorry you are going through this. Isn't patau v rare? There are loads of instances of people having terrible odds & then their babies being absolutely fine, I pray you are one of them.

I know how worrying this is. With dd2 I was given 1:95 of downs. I chose not to have anything invasive done as I'd just had 3 mc's but had a few extra scans at Kings in London instead. Luckily she was fine.

Did they tell you what the markers were?

antidoteif you are around I'm still thinking about you. Is there any way you can call for your results when you've finished work?

Another hand to hold here too.

Hope all goes OK. x

Hi antidote it's 8.10 pm here,so I can talk ,too.
You are a bit further down the line from me. I am 13 weeks with dc4 and waiting for my odds for Down's. Huge bump already and feel like I have been pregnant for ages. Lost a baby last year,so all I was praying for at the scan was a heartbeat. When I saw that I was thrilled. Then I got a visit from the midwife,who broke the news that the baby had signs of Down's. Nuchal fold of 3.4 and no nasal bone present.
I can totally understand how lost you must be feeling.
Maybe your ILS will suprise you and be supportive and kind. You never know how people will react when faced with something as serious as this.
My thoughts and prayers are with you,and I have everyhting crossed for you for good news tomorrow xxx

Just checking for news from antidote...

Thank you all again for your thoughts.

The CVS results were abnormal. We've been seen at the hospital and will go back on Friday.

Although I am very, very sad both DH & I feel much better for knowing. We have lots of RL support around at the moment which is invaluable.

I think I'll probably take a little break from the internet tonight but your support is much appreciated.

I'm sorry, Antidote.

We're here if you need us.