33 weeks pregnant. Am I going insane?!

[Jadeelise]

I’m nearly 33 weeks pregnant and I feel like I’m losing my mind. I’m naturally slim so my bump isn’t massive and there’s concerns baby is unusually small so we have all that to deal with. Que all the comments from strangers telling me I look like ‘I’ve just had a big meal’. It frustrates the life out of me!! I feel like I can’t breathe properly constantly and I feel nauseas all day long, I’m always uncomfortable. Not to mention the tiredness!! Most nights im getting up once an hour (my watch tells me so) so I’m constantly exhausted.

I’m fed up of feeling ugly. I’ve had my hair extensions out as they were just getting in the way and annoying me, same for my lash extensions. I know it sounds super ridiculous but I feel so ugly like I just want to lie in bed every day with no make up on and not see anyone and be in my bubble of ugliness, I hate leaving the house I just feel horrendous. I just want to look like those stunning pregnant women I see on TikTok ffs.

My partner is lovely, it’s his first baby and my second but I just feel like he’s done absolutely nothing to prepare and will just rely on me for everything. I’ve had this conversation with him numerous times and he says he’s sorry and he’ll change but nothing ever does. I’m sick of him watching stupid videos on his phone instead of engaging in actual conversation with me!!!! But after I’ve had a go at him I feel awful like I’ve just kicked a puppy, I can’t win!

I have all this to contend with alongside looking after a 5 year old, the house and a full time job still.

Am I going insane?? I can’t remember feeling this crazy with my first?? Sorry for the long rant :(

I hear you mama. I could've written this myself.
Only difference is my partner is a wonderful help and it makes a whole lot of difference. This is my sixth baby and I do feel exactly as you do, it is hard.
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I can definitely relate to feeling ugly, the sickness and feeling irritated by other people's comment on your body.

I just think when you get pregnant it feels like your body is just public property. I had someone tell me my bump had "dropped" the other day. I just find it gross that someone's observing my body and making comment.

I always feel ugly when pregnant because for me pregnancy comes with illness and I don't have the health to look after myself properly to be honest. I feel like one of those ill people you see hanging around outside hospitals, except I'm not in a hospital, being cared for, I actually have to participate in life and care for other people.

Im not surprised you feel like your going insane because pregnancy can be such an isolating experience. Noone else is pregnant it's just you and even if you do meet another pregnant person, pregnancy is a unique experience and you don't always relate to other people's experiences.

You aren't going crazy though. I understand how you feel. It must be difficult to be on the same page as your partner as well because this is your second, you've done it all before and know what it involves, he has no clue.

I feel this, except I am measuring big not small and everyone is enjoying telling me about it.

I was never a supermodel but I was a size 10-12, had good skin and manageable hair, clothes I liked and could look fairly put together as well as being able to run a 5k a few times a week. Now I'm in size 16-18, spotty, greasy, too knackered to do anything including exercise, nail or hair maintenance etc. I am firmly in my ugly era and wish everyone would fuck off and stop telling me how I look, it's just reminding me they can all see me.

Rant over. But you're not alone.