Depression, abortion?

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A few years ago, I had a wanted pregnancy however my mental health took a huge plummet and at 7 1/2 weeks I decided to have an abortion. My husband was very supportive, we got through it and never regretted it. A few months ago, we decided we would try again and I am now 5 weeks pregnant. However, my anxiety and depression and low mood, along with confusion has also returned and I don’t know if I want to have this baby. My husband is supportive and will support anything we choose to do. However, I’m 30 and feel like I’d be saying no to forever; my husband thinks if we choose to end the pregnancy w can do a lot of therapy and work and it doesn’t mean the door is closed forever. I don’t know if I can go through another abortion but I also don’t know if I can continue a pregnancy feeling this way. We did actively try and we chose names and everything. I just don’t know what to do. I feel terrible but I’m almost wishing a miscarriage to take the pain away.

Could you speak to your midwife about pregnancy supported medication. They take some time to kick off but that would give you some head space to make a decision based on what you want rather than what could be an hormonal reaction? There are therapist that also support pre natal mental health. I think we absolutely

Hormones do strange things to the brain. When I got pregnant my anxiety hit the roof and I became very depressed, I considered abortion several times but could never go through with it. The depression eased off around 20 weeks but I never loved being pregnant. But my god, how I love and adore this child. My advice, since baby was wanted and planned, is to push through these uncomfortable feelings as baby is soo worth it. Not just newborn but the little person they become, no better feeling than when they start smiling/babbling/waving and so on.