I got married last year, and we found out i was expecting our son, 2 weeks later. My husband was aware I suffered severe mental health, ending up with Psychosis and in a mother and baby unit with my last child.
During this pregnancy, I suffered HG from start to end. My husband had little empathy and expected me to continue buisness as usual. I emotionally shut down, as he was so unsupportive, i became critical of most things he did. I felt so alone. During pregnancy, he cheated, constantly lied, he moved out several times to his parents, who absolutely hate me. I was under the perinatal mental health team from my 12 week scan. Depressed and barely able to get out of bed some days.
He opted out of paternity leave, stating the impact on his new job. The night before I gave birth, he threatened to leave, if my dad temporarily moved in to support. As a result, I had to go on the school run 5 days after a c-section.
I was so exhausted on week 4 post birth and I passed out on the school run. Dropping baby. Baby ending up in hospital. My mental health nosedived further - and during a mental health episode i told nurses about feeling emotionally abused and what my husband describes as non-consentual sex incident. He was arrested, bailed but the following day I spoke to police and they dropped the investigation as the disclosure was due to my mental health crisis.
Ive not heard from my husband since (nearly 3 weeks). His parents told me to not message him.
I'm completely broken. Ive lost everything and just want my husband and family back. Im having daily mental health visits and caring for 3 kids alone. Im distraught so much i ended up having a mental capacity assessment, as i turned down a mother and baby mental health unit.
Hes blocked me on social media, hes blocked my number, he wont respond to my emails. I dont know what to do. How do I even get better on my own, when I dont even have time to shower?