Pregnancy depression

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Partner left when I was 8 weeks, he wants the child and wants to be good friends. I will and have included him in everything regarding baby. But the friendship I can’t do, as it makes me confused and miss him = more depression.
im struggling to enjoy the pregnancy as I’m so overwhelmed with him leaving. I very much love him & miss him. I know there’s no going back.
he left for no reasons, but he is bpd and I believe this is a contributor.
I just want some help and advice to help me move forward and be happier.
Currently 15W - 3rd child- plenty of nausea & aversions.
Scared the depression will continue and/or worsen after birth.
currently have talking therapy.
midwife aware of my low moods.
not much community.
audhd.
❤️❤️

ASD here. I had ante natal depression twice and was terrified it would turn into bad PND but both times it resolved immediately after I gave birth.

My point being: ante natal depression driven entirely by hormonal changes/being pregnant can completely resolve.

Another take on normal depression is that it is an entirely appropriate response to the life challenges you are experiencing. From what you say, you have had a really really rough ride of late and are also already parenting two DC. From what you say, your breakup is likely the main cause of your depression.

I just wanted to send a hand hold. What you are going through is really really tough. Depression and low mood are entirely human responses to the situation you are in. In time they will change and you will be in a better place. Keep talking to the professionals and do your best to look after yourself while you weather this storm.

Thankyou for the kindness ❤️ it’s much appreciated ❤️