DP and I have had a lot going on over the last year, we moved house, had a baby and booked a wedding.
Since the baby was 3 months (which also coincides with when we booked the wedding), I’ve been really struggling mentally. A lot of the times she was waking in the night I’d end up not being able to get back to sleep because I’d think of something to worry about. During the day now, I’m feeling almost constantly like there’s a dark cloud hanging over me, and things that should be bringing me joy (the wedding, the house) are instead stressing me out and leading to panics.
It’s making it really hard to enjoy taking care of DD and none of the panics are about her, they’re all wedding or home related e.g. ‘did we make the right choice’, ‘I should feel happier’ and so on.
It feels ridiculous as I know I’m so lucky that my biggest anxieties are about our forever home and a wedding but it really is getting to me to the extent that I’m wondering whether we should move house and/or cancel the wedding (though we really can’t, we’d lose a lot of money!). I was so happy for the first few months and had a great birth experience so I’m confused… does this sound like PPD or have I just made decisions that aren’t right for me and am now living with the consequences?