Hi, Please bear with me as my head is all over the place and I feel such a mess.
I found out 2 days ago that im pregnant with my second child, total shock as first child (nearly 2) was an ivf baby so I was not expecting to get pregnant naturally.
But I've found this time round I don't feel excited at all. If anything i feel petrified and can't stop crying.
Please can people give me some positive insights where they felt the same way but having an additional child was the best change.
Im worried that my relationship will take a big hit, its already hard to make time for my husband and we fight more often since having a child. Also so many of our friends have had issues since no2 and split up.
Our first was so so wanted and Im filled with guilt of how I won't be able to give them my whole time and worry they won't adapt well.
And also because im not feeling happy currently, what if I feel like this the whole way through and dont love this baby? I was just getting to the point where I was almost happy with one aswell, which is making me feel worse.
Basically I cant sleep or eat, im just so anxious and down I dont know what to do, so please be kind and thanks for reading x