I am a single mam with support off my parents, my 7 month old constantly cries indoors nd outdoors even screams in the morning to be carried he always wants to be carried and be stood up if I sit down he cry’s, but I want to be a full time mam, becoming a mother is the best feeling I love my baby but I suffered a lot during my pregnancy and I think is caused my postpartum d worse I’m not in rage with my child or the crying, I get so in rage with myself and being overstimulated I can hearing the ringing everyday and is not fair for my child to sense it or witness, iv never been like this iv always been a calm and collected person but now my emotions take over I am not myself, I get overwhelmed with everything I’m so anxious every time my child open his eyes Im always on the edge and stressed all I want is to be a better mother for my boy I know he’s not the problem I am, my parents his grandparents are mostly taking over bc of my state wondering if anyone has got any advice