Don't feel like a Mum

[SerialSleeper25]

My LO is 3 months old and to say I've struggled is putting it mildly. I feel like I've lost my identity completely. I exclusively BF and never apart from him, if I am it's for no longer than an hour. The resentment I have for his Dad is bad. He gets to carry on and go play games at a friend's twice a week and I'm just plodding along.
I'm starting to feel like something is wrong with me. I don't feel like a mum, more of a babysitter who is in groundhog day.
I love his smiles and watching his development but I'm struggling with any other feeling. Can anyone help or she'd some experiences. Is this normal?

Thank you

I think that age is hard because you don’t get a lot back from the baby. They don’t play with toys etc much yet. The days can be long!
I dont think my husband would have dared to go out twice a week!!

Have you made any mum friends? Nct? Baby classes? You need to spend time with other adults in the day. Sitting and BF in a cafe with friends or at someone’s house is much more enjoyable than being home alone :)

In a couple of months the weather will also improve and you’ll be able to get out more, walks and going to the park etc even if all they can do is go in a swing :)

If you have the money book a weekend away for change of scenery. We once booked a hotel 45 mins away just to have a nice afternoon tea and walk round another town!

Just went to my mums … men will forever be useless

@fashionqueen0123 Thank you for the advice, some time away sounds like a good idea. The classes I have tried with the LO, he's just cried through so it's just made me even more apprehensive to keep trying.

@Guavafish1 Case and point, right now. I say I can't sleep and I'm feeling my mind won't slow down, he says 'have you tried closing your eyes' and starts to snore.

I don't think I ever saw my mum so much before having a baby. She will probably be sick of me soon.

Oh darling I felt that way too. It gets better I sooo promise.
find a nearby breastfeeding network cafe/meeting, look up some mindfulness/grounding techniques, write a letter to your child in the future, tell your mum how you’re feeling and go see a dr. Xx

Don’t worry keep trying! Mums don’t mind crying babies. You might even find a leader who takes them for you for 5 mins so you can get a cup of tea.
Try a breastfeeding group too. Honestly there’s loads out there. You just need to go for it! NCT also do post natal courses which could be good for making mum friends.