Want to disappear

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I'm 19 days PP and as much as I love my baby and husband if I could hit a switch to stop existing, I would. Apart from breast milk I'm of no use.

Is this a normal thought at this stage?

I am very sorry to hear this. Hormones and all the responsibility and changes to your life can bring on thoughts that are quite different to what you expected it to be. This time of year is hard as well when it’s cold and dark so much of the time and tv and social media pretends everyone is playing happy families. I felt like this after my first - it was an extremely difficult birth- and I think I was in shock or something like that. Speak to your health visitor, your DH and your family if you can or friends. With my second child it was an easy birth via c-section and I felt totally different. It does get easier but these early days are so hard. Sending you the best.

Sorry to hear how you’re feeling. But I’ll swap places with you. I have colon cancer. Plus have two early teens.

Whilst this is a terrible situation for you, I don't understand why you've come into a forum specifically for people suffering AND & PND (when you have teenaged children and therefore have no legitimate need to be reading these posts), to dismiss mental health as unimportant because your physical health is worse. I'm sorry you're suffering ill-health and I wish you well in your treatment, but belittling a new mother who is struggling mentally isn't going to change your situation; it could, however, make the OP feel worse than she already does and stop her from seeking help by making her feel she's being silly. Which is potentially dangerous for both her and her newborn baby.

OP, please speak to your health visitor about how you're feeling, and your husband too. Easy to dismiss as "normal", but you still need to speak up and ensure you're getting adequate support and reassurance that you are very much needed and valued. Best of luck in these early days.

Sounds normal to me, I had baby blues with my first, I couldn't stop crying. You are enough, you have brought a human in to this world. Have you spoken to health visitor?

I remember this well. Talk to your gp or midwife. It should pass but if it doesn't, you'll need to have it treated. I had a few months of anti depressants (breast-feeding friendly) before I felt right again.

3 years on and that's all a distant but terrible memory. It passes, either naturally or by treatment.

This is peak time for pp depression. You're exhausted, getting no sleep, your body has been through the wringer and is not your own.

You are the centre of your family right now though, but it is so hard to see how important you are. Please talk to someone - your GP, health visitor, someone at a local baby group, just start talking to them.

Also look at what you enjoyed pre-baby. Can you put any of those things back in place, so you're you, not just a milk supply?

That’s very sad to hear. How are you feeling now.