Hi everyone.. i'm a 17 year old (this matters further along) first time mum to a little boy who was born in july of this year! since before he was born. i've struggled with my mental health, body imagine, eating everything you'd imagine. all from childhood trauma SA DV etc for as long as i can remember so years! i've been lying to everyone about how i feel especially at the time my midwife's health visitor etc. i broke down to my partner yesterday and told him everything how i felt.. due to my age and having them invoked when i was younger as i struggled massively with school i had social work just checkup when i was pregnant all went fine! i'm absolutely petrified to speak up incase they use my age and problems against me.. anyone have any ideas what to do, i really don't want to live like this anymore my brain and heart hurts i break down every night, every time my son cries (FYI i've never once hurt him physically or mentally) i feel like such a failure i didn't get help before he was here i just don't know how i can't speak or regulate my emotions.. i definitely have some sort of ptsd due to all that happened and i think that's making it worse.. but as i said before im so scared incase they try and take him off me or get social work back invoked as i know it wouldn't help only worse i just need the correct support.. what would you do in this situation?