OCD intrusive thoughts

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I have had the same intrusive thought for 5 months now.

I have postnatal anxiety and borderline ocd and have been in Sertraline for nearly 5 months. My mood is good now and I am so much happier than I was it’s just the same intrusive thought won’t go away.

The thought has distressed me so much it’s about my little one dying and the intrusive thought telling me I can’t wait for it to happen.

This all stems from birth trauma and two miscarriages and just not believing that I have the most perfect little boy when I’m just waiting for something bad to happen even though I know it won’t.

so basically my question is will the thought eventually fade to the point I won’t have it anymore??

I think they say the more you push it away rather than sit with it, the more it will go. Have you done any therapy with a clinical psychologist?

Hi there, I had intrusive thoughts and post natal anxiety after the birth of my daughter 7yrs ago and I got CBT in the end when she was a toddler, but what helped me was to not block the thoughts, but to try to be rational about them and not let them consume me, often through self talk.For example, I had one about hitting my pet cat on the head with a hammer...I just told the thought to bugger off and that it was talking rubbish as i would never do such a thing.Then tried to think about something else.It did really help to get rid of them as I was not 'feeding' the thoughts with anxiety or attention.

@Anon501178 thank you for letting me know your experience. It is horrible isn’t it?
how long did you have them for? I’ve had them for about 7 months now and things are definitely better than they were.

My children are adults now but I have intrusive thoughts too. I thought it was just me. I tell my 'voice' to bugger off but they really are unsettling.

@rainbowstardrops no you are not the only one. They are horrible. But I have found comfort in hearing someone say that they are the opposite of what you really think/are. I take mine as showing me how protective I am of my little one.

That's a good way to look at it. Mine often involve something awful happening to my children, so incredibly unsettling. Maybe because I adore them and that's the exact opposite of what I want for them? I wish they'd go away!

Essentially, you're best bet it to treat your brain like a separate entity. Have a conversation with it. If you try to hide those thoughts they can get worse. If you can, it's good to say 'yes thanks for that, brain, really helpful. Now if you'll just pipe down I can get on with my day!' Or something like that.
Acknowledging the thought but then letting it go is a useful strategy. It's just a thought, no matter how distressing it is at the time. So sorry you are struggling in this way, my son has had bouts of this as has my ex husband.

It is.....it was scary when it first happened as a new mum.I used to sit up reading alot of bad news stories on the daily mail app whilst feeding DD which probably didn't help....also had Grenfell and Manchester bombing within the first few months of having her which made things scarier.
So started trying to distance myself from those kind of triggers in the news which helped.
But it went on for most of her first year or two.....got much better when she was 2ish I'd say, when I began not to see risk in EVERYTHING, and second guess my parenting abilities constantly.
I had a few intrusive thoughts after DD2 when she was a newborn but nothing like before and that phase quickly passed.I think sleep deprivation definitely can make it worse.
I'm glad yours are easing off....it's a battle at times to overcome them but I think once you consistently have the confidence to do so, they do go away.