Newborn - grieving pregnancy and birth

[Bellzy]

I have a newborn. I'm incredibly lucky I know.
But I can't help feel immense sadness that I'm no longer pregnant.
I miss my bump, the kicks, feeling like it's just us. Feeling a bit special I guess.

Birth was ok, but I had this idea of "holding it together", and I didn't quite act in the way I wanted.
I feel sadness that I couldn't have the experience I hoped. And that I can't do it again. And worry about what the midwife thinks/thought, and my DH.
I feel sad I won't see a midwife again. I feel sad that every day my baby is getting bigger.

I am sure it gets better in time, and I know I am so lucky, but I am worried I'll feel like this forever.

I felt like this after my first, so if you are unusual for feeling this way then me too!

it definitely fades, especially once your newborn starts making and becoming his or her own personality.

I also missed being pregnant - thought I had a few weeks left and out she popped. It felt like a relationship had ended unexpectedly, and made me sad, despite the joy I felt at having this tiny bundle in my arms!

Thank you, it's nice to know that it will start to feel a bit easier in time. It feels so raw currently x