I know what I’m experiencing is normal, so looking to hear from those who have come out the other side.
10 days PP and baby blues have hit me hard. The day she was born, after the initial rush of relief she was safe and finally here (she was an IVF baby) I didn’t get the overwhelming feelings of love. But I was able to view this with some distance and accept it was normal - my brother shared his experience of not being head over heels with my niece straight away which helped.
We got home and I had a blissful almost week where I was falling in love with her, DH has been incredible, taking care of both of us.
But I’ve hit the hormone crash - feeling tearful and distant from her - almost like she isnt mine. Terrified of SIDS (co sleeping as she won’t go in the next to me for yet). Already hugely anxious about DH going back to work in 2 weeks. In laws are down tomorrow and feeling worried about people breaking the PP bubble me and DH have been in - I absolutely want them to see her as a newborn but this time feels so precious!
To add to this, DH has bonded immediately with her - he 100% had that mad rush of love when he first held her and is just absolutely besotted - so add in some feelings of jealousy that he’s in that place.
I know these feelings are normal, but would appreciate some stories from those who have made it through. Not worried about PPD just yet as it is early days.