Anxiety of becoming a new parent

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Im due my first baby in 5 weeks and i have so much anxiety.
I feel I'm going to be the worst mum and i already feel uptight about it.
Like I'm scared that people are going to judge me for example for if i put boundaries in place, Such as kissing my baby, things like that and not wanting in laws etc looking after my baby. Just the thought of like people suffocating me upsets me and i feel uptight and i don't want to be.
I see other people and how relaxed they are and i just want to be like this. Like i already feel awful that my baby feels my anxiety and already feels i have let them down.

Have you discussed how you're feeling with your partner? Maybe they can help you rationalise what is something worth fretting about (e.g. no hot drinks if holding the baby) and what to not worry about (e.g. worrying if in laws will hand the baby back if they cry - they will, because you just say "c'mon then!" and take them back again). Best of luck x