Hi,
This is my first time posting but I’ve been constantly searching threads on here. I’m 5.5 weeks pregnant and I’m really struggling with how low I feel. When I found out I was pregnant, I was so excited but last week I was told this was ‘definitely’ an ectopic pregnancy and rushed to hospital for surgery. I was in bits when they told me. When I got there I was scanned again and they saw a mass on my tube but a tiny GS in my uterus and was sent home to be rescanned. Turns out I was just early and the GS is growing and now has a yolk sac. I should have been relived but I feel nothing but dread, guilt and shame towards this pregnancy now. I can’t stop crying and worrying about everything, I don’t feel any attachment towards the pregnancy and have even started having doubts about wanting it (I’m so ashamed to write this because I know I wanted it so bad).
I don’t know if it’s just hormones or if there’s something wrong with me. I just feel a huge sense of dread and worthlessness/ hopelessness. My partner is so excited and I just don’t feel that anymore. I just wanted to know if anyone’s felt the same and it got better?