Why am I feeling like this?

[m8ybeb8by]

I am 22 weeks pregnant after several miscarriages and have really enjoyed my pregnancy so far.

I am at an age where people around me have been getting pregnant the last few years and continue to do so including siblings and friends.

Over the last few weeks I have had 2 friends and a close family member tell me they are pregnant, however, this news has made me feel low. It has been me feel insecure and I struggle to pin down why.

I don't know why I am feeling like this. Am I jealous of their journey? Am I jealous of sharing the spotlight? I found out people were pregnant earlier in my pregnancy but I don't know why recently it has triggered me so much. I had a cry about it earlier this week but now feel isolated and want to lock myself away.

Anyone have similar experiences? Am I overthinking?

It's a strange time hormonally. Keep speaking to your midwife it won't be anything they haven't heard before.

Do you worry they will do pregnancy or motherhood “better” than you? Are you generally self critical? You sound very self reflective and aware of your emotions though which is such a great basis for being a lovely mum It’s a very normal time, please don’t beat yourself up about it!

It's weird as I feel confident in my capabilities and I know I will try my best at whatever comes my way.

I think something internally in me is making this into a competition and I'm worried about it being a competition albeit I'm the only one doing this right now.

I'll speak to my midwife and flag that I'm having silly thoughts which I recognise as being silly and am working through by writing down but can't seem to shake the general low feeling!

I really hope it's the hormones and I can work through this!

I generally thought I was being a bitch by not being as happy as I have been for others when pregnancy news has been previously shared!