It's been so long since I've searched on this site. I'm 35 with a 12 and 8 year old. Married, been together nearly 20 years. Happy, settled great career and a husband that covers most of the childcare. During medical treatment I found out I was expecting, I'm currently 7 weeks. Completely out of the blue, conteception failed.
Everyday I change my mind about having a 3rd child and I'm experiencing emotions like never before. I'm sad, angry, numb. I've been completely honest with my husband to the point we ordered the abortion pill. Had a scan today and still feel the same.
I suffer with generalised anxiety disorder and I can't seem to work out whether my feelings are because I truly don't want this baby or if I'm panicked with the complete unplanned change in our future. I've never been the motherly type and I've had my career whilst their dad supported homelife. I do plan on speaking with my midwife next week, as I'm so concerned I'm suffering with antinatal depression - just can't shift this feeling and it's been around still the moment I found out at 4 weeks.
Id love to know if anyone has had this? Am I trying to ignore the obvious and really don't want this child? Or is going to ease in time? Did your midwife help with this?
Thankyou 🩷