I couldn't find the right topic but I just needed to offload some bad thoughts. I have a 2.5 year old I had post natal depression pretty bad. Got medicated after 1 year which helped loads. But often have down days as I'm sure everyone does. On the whole I usually feel happy. Just for perspective I'm now a single mum which I'm actually happy about as wasn't happy in relationship however still close to ex and he's very involved. I work 30 hours a week DC in nursery 2 days parents other 2. I never have a minute to myself. When I had DC I wasn't interested in my career I accepted I would work part time, but lately I just feel like a yearn for my old life and to earn more money and have a proper career and feel like I've hit a brick wall. I long for my old body back and it will never be the same. I long to feel what I used to feel like an excitement for the future and now I just feel my whole life is being a mum. I know it's crazy as this is what I expected but some days I feel so down I can't make plans or apply for other jobs or study something or go to university etc. I had a very independent well travelled life before motherhood and I guess it's a shock. Just wanted a vent and wondered if anyone felt the same. I must add I love my DC and wouldn't swap him for anything in the world but god sometimes I miss that old life.