2nd pregnancy Help guilt unworthy

[92louise]

Hi so basically I'm on my 2nd pregnancy my first pregnancy and son I didn't behave the way a pregnant woman should I did things I wasn't proud of but luckily ds was healthy and okay. But this pregnancy I felt happy the first two three weeks but since then I feel upset trapped (I'm not stupid I know I have brought this upon myself and feel disgraced) I feel like I already hate this child. Yet I know its a stupid comparison but when I watch something to do with the tiniest little bit of scolding/hatred to another it literally makes me cry. Which I hope And think it doesn't make me a monster. But why am I so unhappy. I don't even feel pregnant I wouldn't think twice (before hand) about doing what a pregnant lady could

@92louise I'm so sorry that you are unhappy. Have you spoken to your DP or the GP? Sounds as though you might need some support

It’s quite normal to feel low, plus exhausted during the first trimester. I think that on top of this you have his extra guilt or depression, and the normal low mood of the 1st trimester is making it worse.

It’s not your fault for all the hormones that are hitting you right now, your body is growing a whole organ from scratch, the placenta, plus a baby.

What you can do is ask for help from the GP, there are lots of medication that is safe in pregnancy. It’s how you act with the hand that you”ve been given that is in your power. And also take it easy, see if you can get some help with workload or take breaks, walks. You’ll feel better within a week or so of taking treatment. Good luck x

Hello and thank you firstly for both of your replies. The worst part is at 14 weeks I miscarriage and have never felt more guilt than ever. Obviously the way I felt before hand and then even worse having the choice took away I know deep down now I would of loved and cherished this baby I was just getting in my head filled of doubts